There are no orphans of God!
It's been awhile since I've posted, about 7 months. It has not been for a lack of words, but a lack of confidence. Listening to Satan's lies will get you absolutely nowhere! This I know all to well! I am back and I plan to give God the glory through my words! I want to share something I wrote since I was last with you. I read it now & I can hear the pain, I remember the day I wrote it. I was at a baseball game sitting in the score keepers box by myself, running the scoreboard and keeping the books. Funny thing is there were people all around me but I still felt so alone, felt that I didn't matter, as long as I did the job of score keeping that no one else seemed to want to do. That's ok, my pain was to raw, it was better if I sat alone so no one could get close to me. They might hurt me too! I already felt abandoned. I didn't need anymore pain! Maybe you have been there too!
I sit alone up here in this box, feeling the pain strike against my heart. No one to talk to, just the breath of my thoughts blowing through my mind. When thoughts cry out from the blinding scene, my heart hears and it bursts at the seams. The tears start to form and settle in its inner pockets threatening to seal the cracks before more poison flows out. My heart throbs begging the tears not to refrain! Bring on the poison, bring on the rain! I need to be free, free from this pain! The mind controls me! I can't move on!
That's where I ended my plea for relief. I'm not going to take it any further but instead answer my own cry with words that God has whispered to me!
I will never leave you! I will gather you up my broken child and hold you til our hearts once again beat as one. I will gather your tears in my hands and pour them into my medicine bottle. Your tears are silent prayers to me! See, I will use every tear you shed and make it into a soothing balm that I will gently massage into your wounds, your bruised heart. My love mixed with your tears make a rich ointment for the piercings in you heart and mind that have become infected with hurt, doubt and insecurity. You will be healed! You will be free! Trust in me, lean on me, have faith! I will never leave you!
Hebrews 13:5b-6 "Never will I leave you; never will I forsake you." 6. So say with confidence, "The Lord is my helper; I will not be afraid. What can man do to me?"
God has not left me! I am not an orphan of God! I am his beloved child whom he loves!
Never alone,
Stephanie Goode
